Once upon a time ago 

I thought life could be easy.

Look at me 

I’m lower

Than the sunken place

I feel like I’m lost at sea 

And hit the rock bottom

Where there’s 

No treasure to be seen

Just darkness

I feel I failed 

Didn’t prepare myself well for 

This journey 

Of adulthood

I

Left home with 

No map 

Just dreams 

Because I’m 

Used to the shelter

Too naive

To think life couldn’t

Attack. 

Sometimes 

I want to retreat back 

To that little girl again

Where’s there’s no worries 

Just fantasies 

And it was ok to have innocence

While I’m there I have to 

Unlearn things 

Like my heart being 

Too big.

These relationships can’t handle 

Me now.

I’m always the hurt one

Or

I’m always the most invested

Or

I always care the most 

I need to get a hold of my accountability 

That I love too damn hard!

I wish I could’ve of told my younger self that fairytales Don’t exist.

There’s no glass slipper

no fairy godparents

no prince

Waiting on me

There’s no safe haven

To keep my family safe

Or my feelings safe.

I needed to grow out of these

Delusions a long ago time.

That life could be easy.