I wish to live my life

Among the silence and the still

In the dead of the night

Sitting on a cold window sill

 

I wish i could be left alone

In my darkness oh so sweet

But everyone thinks they're helping

When they point out i’m nothing but offbeat.

 

I don’t love this world

And how it makes me feel so hollow

I wish i could jump off the roof

And fly away from tomorrow.

 

If i could I would fly to neverland

Where no one ever grows

Where no one is judgmental

And you don’t have to reap what you sow.

 

If i could run away from all my problems,

Trust me i would

But they are all deep down inside me

Where no one has ever stood

 

I am nothing but a soul

Wandering around and longing for the stars

That call for me and sing for me

While i’m behind these iron bars.

 

Come play with us!

Come take my hand!

Come drift away

Into our dark land.

 

With powerful might

I rip open the bars

I shoot through the sky

Straight towards mars.

I find that even in the darkness

I can see.

That even in the sky,

I can simply be.

So i grasp the hands of my brand new friends

Who just sit and dwell in love

We sit and stare down

As life flutters away like a dove.

I find myself feeling happy

But soon i sadly realize

That way up here out of the world’s reach,

Oxygen is what i need to be alive

I gasp for air and head back home

away from my cosmic friends

I long to play with them and laugh

But my night has come to an end.

 

I look up to wave good bye

But my eyes narrow in.

For they are laughing and running about

As if i was never there to begin.

It dawns on me that those whom i had loved

Were simply pawns of my imagination

They were just my silly little mind’s images

And vastly contorted depictions.

I wake with a start and slowly realize

I just dreamed of it without ever leaving

And reality comes,

loudly screaming.

I’m trapped here I say!

I’m lost and broken too.

But I will keep living

Like everyone else seems to do.