You see me and you laugh

Even my mother calls me ugly

You say that it is no place for a woman 

You do not accept me

 

So I have tried to hide

Escape into my own world

One with music, filled with passion and emotion

One where I am recognized for my beauty

 

Yet it is not filling

I strive for a deeper connection

Acceptance for who I am

A loving compassion

 

I try

Yet, in most eyes I fail

You try to pretend you do not care, but you do

But you let me be

To deal with the events that have occurred

 

You thought I might break

BUT HERE I AM

Happy in the world I HAVE CREATED

 

Done with trying to be the cookie cutter image that you have given me

That the world has given me to fit into

 

I do not fit this image

I am different

I am beautiful 

I have soul

 

I have become strong because of you

To battle your evil, your disapproval, your abuse

In my mind I am fine and that is all that matters

My image is fine, and I am happy

Because as I die laughing

No one's image will matter