I've never been anyone's first 
Or even anyone's second
Everyday gets worse
No one wants to listen
I put a smile on my face before I walk out the door
Don't want them to see how much it burns 
Their words hurt and I have no aid
As if that's not enough they make me feel insane
You say you're there for me 
When you're the furthest away
I try to keep my head up
But nothings going my way
And things start feeling really hard
Every time I believe I'm at the top of the pit
My feet lose their ground and I go tumbling back down
But I don't understand why they could be so mean
They say they act this way because of me
As if I had something to do with it
But I know I don't 
I feel I'm the same as I was before