Im too far into my own feelings to see how ridiculous I'm being.
Im too selfish and angry to be happy for another person
I'm too hurt and still mourning over the death of us, because you don't care to learn what makes me ME
I'm too selfish to smile for another, to the person who birthed my lover
To the mother of this man who took part in creating our family, why dont you have respect for me
Why is it you take every chance you can to forsake me
If I died today, my children could not love you like they love me
But if I died today, you'd say you did this all without me anyways..
I am forgotten about on special occasions
I am ignored on holidays that require gifts
I, so angrily, demand some recognition, but I'm recognized for being a bitch.
I have no more love in my heart, I want to become what you see
I want to become the woman you are so convinced is the real me
Maybe then you all will see, the better half of me
She is gone. Deceased. All that's left, is a crying broken shell of who I used to be.
I don't want to be here anymore.