illusions
leave me be
let me see for myself the cruelty
i know you supposedly didn't mean to hurt me
so why am i sitting here with my heart bleeding and these tears streaming
let down and left down i lay praying
wishing, hoping and praying
driving me crazy
I'd kill for u
lie and steal for u
go hungry just to feed u
bleed for u
breed for u
beg for u
leaving me completely thoughtless and satisfied and feeling even more alive
in make believe scenes and in my individual dreams there are significant instances where im sure ur more than what caught my eye
dumbfounded, astounded, blinded
i felt surrounded by you
i don't know what im trying to do by pursuing this indifferent concealing feeling from you
im sick and im tired and im hungry for you
so much intrusion on my soul
like a lunatic in a institute for the crazed and deranged
u make me feel like im going insane
something in my membrane twitches and causes flinches with an instant that we lock eyes
and they say don't think about it too much
you'll go nuts
what u should have done and what you should do is and how u would do that only if and when you could and why you should
if and only..
phony..