I'll Strive to be Better
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I'll strive to be Better
By: Carlie Furse
The powder on my mother's nose
I see it’s taces on her clothes
I watch her force it in her skin
the heroine, a drug, a vicious sin
She doesn’t know I see her dying
She thinks it’s hidden, no one spying
If she knew what I’ve been seeing
She might buy a belt, just for beating
At night I cry and bellow quiet
All i wish is that she’d fight it
No one knows or understands
the pain it causes, just by her hands
It’s in her brain, her heart has tore
He is gone, her husband no more
Adultery, cheating, that is why
She never truly said goodbye
One day the pain was way too much
We got the call, “paramedics” and such
“We saved her in time, before she left"
Now a hospital bed is where she's kept
Be thankful for who you hold so tight
My mom was close to death that night
I'll never forget her suicidal brinks
Throwing up pills into random sinks
Now broken pieces are on the floor
We don't know each other anymore
At least she's alive for tomorrow
But I'll never forget the all of the sorrow
I've been blessed to know so much better
To remember her past mistakes forever
So I won't mess up in the same way
I'll strive to be better for now and always..