ill send this to u after 2 more shots i know it
i bet you sit there and smile
knowing that the silence is killing me
and the distance has gone from inches to miles
till between us there is open sea
and you were my first ever drunk call
the first memory induced headache
and you were the first id ever loved
the first of many mistakes
and i hope it soothes the pain i caused
the fact i lay here alone
the fact that its all fake and I’ve hit pause
and i decided to pick up the phone
and I’ve already wasted so much time
i couldve used to down another shot
and i hope it makes you feel better
because you have to stay sober and I’m obviously not
and i never lied about drinking wine
and singing on tables with you by my side
a dirty apartment in some slum of a city
where you and i reside
and i hope we can still go to that tea place
up in the mountains id mentioned before
and i bet we could still write some god ass songs
eventually when we are less torn
and I’ve said sorry so much i think its made it worse
so I’m trying to find a new pill
i can shove down your throat to turn off the pain
but maybe I’ve already exceeded your fill
so i think ill go back to leaving you alone
and ill be proud of myself when I’m sober
that i knew when to stop myself to make it less bad
and when to decide
this
was
over