You sit there with a blank stare on your face. You smile but you want to cry. You talk but you want to be quiet. You pretend to be happy but you arent. Youre broken. You cant get away from it all its as if a current is pushing you under water. You want to breathe but you cant. Your swimming towards the top but you feel that tug pulling you down. 

Everyone expects you to be happy! yeah you smile, yeah you talk to everyone... but you dont tell anyone youre hurt down inside... why? no one fucking cares. No one wants to hear what you have to say. You tell them something. It enters one ear out through the other.

You know what? Youve been hurt so much that doesnt even effect you anymore. You see things others dont see. You understand things others dont understand. You see the world for what it really is. How this world isnt the greatest thing. How this world is what you make of it. We see the world as a horrible place.. it isn't. Its the people who are doing all the wrong, all the bad. They make this world seem like the shithole it seems like today.

But we are confused human beings. Our minds play tricks on us. We arent perfect not even close. 

I believe we are here to find ourselves. The only escape is no longer breathing.

We long for something so much that we miss all the beautiful things.. The trees, the flowers the clouds. The way the wind fills blowing against you, the way the flowers smell, the way the sky looks.

Im confused. Im hurt. I understand, I see, but Im still here.