I Woke Up Like This (Literally) Flawless Slam
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Would you like to know what makes me look at you this way?
What, for a moment, makes me feel invincible?
My thoughts of bleach and old apartments filled my mind last winter
Summer brought a bartender, paranoia and almost love that for once doesn't hurt a bit
I'm shaking, silently, in my bones, that I fear that fall could bring me
falling through Saturn's vaporizing storms,
thousands of miles of falling in gases and lightning-
I
The way that once weak, power hungry jewels give me scars
the facets sharper than saying, "You make me want to die" cut across
down, stroking me like a mother's gentle touch
I bleed in white sheets
I. wake. up. in the morning.
AM
I do not suggest crying the shower.
It stuffs up my nose, the one I can brush against your jaw in the summer
I do not suggest staying in the house where everything you could ever need lays about.
You won't get anything done.
I do not suggest the impatience of telling the wrong person
that their heartbeat
is your favorite kind of beat.
STILL
I am the tears that run across your face, now I am the complusion, the drive.
You don't
get to
treat me
like that
anymore
You
don't
get to.
HERE
Ring around the hours,
pocket full of power
Ashes, ashes
Everything stings in the shower.
AND
I have no other heroes but myself
Because
nobody
saved me.
I
You don't
get to
treat me
like that
anymore
You
don't
get to.
AM
I have accepted all scars, all bruises all tears
as nature
clouds under skin
lightning against sky
rain from nurture.
FLAWLESS
I am building my sculptre because
I have built my chisels
by hand
by mouth
by touch
eyes closed.
I bled in white sheets
I. woke. up. in the morning.