I Woke Up Like This (Literally) Flawless Slam

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Would you like to know what makes me look at you this way?

What, for a moment, makes me feel invincible?

 

 

My thoughts of bleach and old apartments filled my mind last winter

Summer brought a bartender, paranoia and almost love that for once doesn't hurt a bit

I'm shaking, silently, in my bones, that I fear that fall could bring me

falling through Saturn's vaporizing storms,

thousands of miles of falling in gases and lightning-

 

I

 

The way that once weak, power hungry jewels give me scars

the facets sharper than saying, "You make me want to die" cut across

down, stroking me like a mother's gentle touch

I bleed in white sheets

 

I. wake. up. in the morning.

 

AM

 

I do not suggest crying the shower.

It stuffs up my nose, the one I can brush against your jaw in the summer

I do not suggest staying in the house where everything you could ever need lays about. 

You won't get anything done.

I do not suggest the impatience of telling the wrong person

that their heartbeat

is your favorite kind of beat.

 

STILL

I am the tears that run across your face, now I am the complusion, the drive. 

 

You don't

get to

treat me

like that

anymore

 

You 

don't

get to.

 

HERE

 

Ring around the hours,

pocket full of power

Ashes, ashes

Everything stings in the shower. 

 

AND

 

I have no other heroes but myself

Because

nobody

saved me.

 

I

 

You don't 

get to

treat me 

like that

anymore

 

You 

don't 

get to.

 

AM

 

I have accepted all scars, all bruises all tears

as nature

clouds under skin

lightning against sky

rain from nurture.

 

FLAWLESS

 

I am building my sculptre because

I have built my chisels

by hand

by mouth

by touch

eyes closed.

 

 

I bled in white sheets

 

I. woke. up. in the morning.

 

 

 

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