I Watched a Boy Grow
I watched a boy grow
smart and sweet
how was I to know
my heart would shatter at my feet?
a few times we danced
our eyes never meeting
too nervous to get the chance
to tell you, the moment fleeting
in my journal I write
'I love you' a thousand times
but I did not put up a fight
when others could see what I saw in you sometimes
I gave meaningful gifts
but you never saw my simple actions
your view of me shifts
I watched a boy realize he had better options
as my heart fell, it splintered
I watched the jagged points hit the ground
only to find them cutting my skin, leaving me withered
from then on I wasn't around
tensely, I sit in a soft chair
choking, my throat dry as I tell my story
she listens, leaving me feeling bare
I wonder, does she feel bad for me?
a year later
I can sit next to you and actually breathe
I don't hate her
but I can't believe you like a tease
from honest and kind
to immature low
I lost my mind
I watched a boy grow