I used to Love

Could everyone tell but me ?

The feelings I felt you never felt the same for me .

And what a shame ,

All we could have been .

Everything you said I believed in

so whole heartedly.

How could I not see past the façade

Of all the lies , the games && trickery.

They say that love is blind,

But I say love is blinding .

I couldn’t see what was right in front of me ,

With love in the way blocking me.

My heart I gave , no strings attached

That heart you took and tore apart.

Now I’m left alone to find and put back all the pieces,

Of a heart which was never quite whole to begin with.

So where do I go from here ?

I have yet to mend this heart of mine ,

Thinking of you still send shivers up my spine ,

I know you’ve moved on ,

And I wish I could to,

But believe me when I say it’s not that easy ;

Not that easy, as it was loving you .

And even if you did me wrong,

My love for you remains so strong .

I refuse to believe you never loved me .

I refuse to believe you and I will never be ,

More than just a fantasy ;

That I still wish could have been a reality .

I know I must let you go,

And that this is something I needed to go through in order to grow .

But tell me what do I do from here?

How do I get out of this web which has entangled me .

Can someone help me please ,

I can’t see with love-still in the way blocking me .

Every time I try to move forward ,

something pulls me  into the reverse direction .

I know I’m to blame for this constant obstruction.

I hung around you so long that lies now become a daily habit .

I keep lying to myself to stop the crying ,

Cuz I figure if I lie it will somehow numb the pain .

And what’s now a hole in my chest can start beating again.

I’ve come to realize that these lies

Do nothing but create more lonely cries .

Yet I do nothing in my power to try to stop it .

They say that all is fair in love and war

But because of you I closed that door

And I’m scared to look out anymore.

Because , After you my dear ,

Love just don’t live here no more.