I Sit Here
I sit here,
thinking of the future
remembering the past
and longing for the passion of the present
I sit here,
unamused, broken down, and confused
of who I've become
and who I'm supposed to be
I sit here,
wondering what I could do to make them proud
to make them see that I'm not a failure..
I sit here,
in this never-ending war
the war in my mind
I sit here,
And pray
pray for my individuality
pray for my guilt to surrender and let me go
the guilt in not being who they want..
I sit here,
alive.
But I'm dead inside...