I Remember
Location
I remember the way you
Puckered your
Lips around a
Menthol
Cigarette
And how you
Brushed your
Hair in the morning
I remember the way you
Smiled
As you drove me around in
Your
Silver
Convertible
I remember your
Gold chain and
Navy blue briefs
That were worn out and
Your green
Bathroom towel that
You wrapped around
Your waist
As you brushed
Your
Crooked teeth
I remember how
You taught me to
Love music
As we sat in your
Office and
Talked about the
Themes of the
Songs you wrote
On the piano
You played your
Beat up
Acoustic guitar and I
Spotted a bottle of
Tennessee
Whiskey
Hidden behind
A picture frame on
Your desk
I remember the
Late nights
When you would
Ride off and
Return early in the
Morning
I remember the
Way you slurred
Your words
As you threatened
Mom with divorce
I remember how
You counted up to
Ten
When I was
Misbehaving at
Dinner and
That was
How
Many
Times you
Struck me
With your
Worn out
Brown belt
When we got
Home
I remember how
You teased my brother for
Being a fat child and
Told him to
Skip lunch
Almost
Every
Day
I remember the way
Your tense hand
Felt against my
Bottom and the way
Your words
Stung me
At
My
Core
And I have held onto
Your words
For years
But the words I
Hold
Onto
Dearly
Are the ones you
Left
Behind the day
You
Died and
How you said
We were all
Better off
Without you
But
I would rather have
Bruises on my
Arms and legs
Than know that you
Hated yourself and
Didn’t want to
Live
I would rather
Hate you than
Know that you thought
It couldn’t get any
Better
I wish you could read this
Or hear this
Or know this
But you can’t so
I’ll just have to
Remember you
The way you were