I love you no I hate you.

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77072
United States
29° 42' 0.954" N, 95° 35' 16.7496" W

Benevolent Joe:
I hate my double personality the one that hides inside of me
the one that automatically ruins my functionality
perplexing my anatomy changing my life so drastically
causing me to act on different things so dramatically
I tell the girl I love how I feel that I need her
then my evil side comes out and says I never want to see her
malevolent Joe just go you're a good deceiver
you make me over think things so that I wont believe her
I know how to get girls but cause of you I can't keep them
I know how to listen that love was the witness
our memories are still breathing I think of her every evening
but the mess I can't stop cleaning with you throwing dirt at the ceiling
the wounds can't finish healing you change the words as I'm speaking
I can't express all my feelings cause I tell her one thing and show something completely different
I always stop the bleeding but you hurt us and start proceeding
then you being intervening and the process just starts repeating
I make all the promises it's you that always breaks them
then she has me mistaken and thinks that I'm never changing
why sinister Joe?why do you do this in my life?
I can't ever do things right as long as you live by my side
I've had way too many tries attempts that I won't deny
just when I have you exorcised you somehow manage to survive
I'll make a pact with God an act to get what I want
I'll have him put you to march and suffer it as I watch
to get all my problems resolved all the heartaches dissolved
heal anything that is scarred get the code to our peace unlocked
her and I just want forgiveness,tranquility at it's stillness
a love we can make sinless and combine both of our spirits
she always gives me a chance to prove to her that I can
I have everything planned I head towards the right path
I walk to it and so fast it's everything that I have
but then it branches to halves to strands not on either maps
and that's when I hear you laugh and walk towards my babe
so I head straight for your way to prevent another mistake
I see you look at her face and speak words not in the play
then there's nothing else I can say I have realized it's been too late.

Malevolent Joe:
You made a pact with God?I signed a contract with the devil
you shook hands with the man?I signed in blood to be official
turn your feelings into crystal and your sentiments all see through
so maybe that explains why you're sensitive and brittle
Joe this is simple, we live to be fearful
made to be sinful, came and leaving this life single
make selection of your weapon go ahead and take possession
shoot me with perfection let's see you make the connection
you can make the objection portray all kinds of exceptions
you still carry my sins you're in for the whole collection
you claim that you, have a set accession to heaven?
don't forget we're connected where ever you go I'm heading
I'm also much stronger so if hell is my direction
remember that you and I are together till Armageddon
you were like Mayweather, you had a perfect record
no girl ever dumped you till' she came and fought love better
you were number 1 contender your reflexes perfect measure
you dropped your guard down and she laid you flat on the center
never should you let her make you crack to the pressure
make your feelings all tender soft and swift like a feather
I am the definition of that one antic disposition
the way I stay unpredictable and creative with my decisions
you will never get rid of me understand I am immortal
so if you suddenly throw a fit understand that it is normal
I'm that evil dark side of yours and I do what I want
of your anger I am in charge to your commands I'll never respond
of your character I'm half a part you can try and get smart
you will never stop my rage regardless the age it will be hard
go ahead and have a surgery get fitted a transplant's heart
but it will never tear us apart I'll still be pumping blood from the start
my job description? An emotion mathematician
collect and operate stress plus your anger like I'm doing addition
I don't need your permission to give your madness ignition
just need one problem one spark and I'll light up all your decisions.

Comments

inthemorningoftheday

I wrote this poem based on my bipolar behavior, how it affects my life, and how I feel about it.

lizardoa21

Feels like this describes very well my own trouble with my inner self and rage that is very difficult to control. this is an amazing piece and i feel like it would be much stronger being heard you should try to record yourself reciting this. How does that sound to you?

inthemorningoftheday

Yes I've been wanting to make a video reciting this ever since I wrote it. Still talking to people with connections to recording equipment to capture this on film.Thank you for the feedback.

lizardoa21

Good luck to you. Be sure to post it once you do get it recorded i would like to see myself.

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