after months of wandering

where have you been

what you been up to

it all came back in full circles that continues to evolve in all circles

my homeboy and i were talking about life itself

he happens to ask me about you

i said, let me call up to find out the latest

but it's no scoop to gossip that never sleeps

when i call stepdad

he gave me the confiormation to your path

path of destruction where all you are is numbers

and a color that is all too familar for men of color

you were recycle like yesterday garbage

transported to a wasteland where you're life was disposed to a place that shackled your existance

your memory was faded to where nobody remembers you other than all the bad things you've done

you never listened when i say if you don't stop what you're doing

something bad is going to happen to you

your walls caved in

and crushed your soul that you don't even know you had

that place called upstate is not that place families go skiing in the poconos

that place called upstate is waiting for your blood stains to be smeared on dirty hands who don't even like you because your contribution to society was fulfilled

when they expect you to fail, you may them believers

my hands are wash clean 

i forgive you

even though people don't have forgiving hearts

god forgives even his worst enemies

i pray for you