I Hope I Can Just Be Me
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I was always perceived as a happy child
Because I always smiled
I never wanted my anger to show
I preferred to let my happiness glow
I tried looking on the positive side of life
But I constantly saw much strife
The truth is I’m not very glad
Deep inside I honestly feel mad
I am always feeling sad
Because I everything I do goes bad
Anger is very tough for me to control
I keep it inside my heart thus creating a dark hole
I have been complimented by my red hair
And skin that is very fair
Comments about my form
Demonstrated that I did not look like the norm
People have always said I was unique
But it all depended on who made the critique
My appearance is the reason I was bullied as a kid
The hair, freckles and skin always made me hid
I hate the way I appear
My characteristics make me tear
My dream is to look the same
Trying to resemble everyone else is my aim
I have always loved my father and mother
They were truly like no other
I loved them with all my heart
It seemed like nothing can take us apart
They have always loved me
Or for the most part, that is how it seemed to be
I have lived through a big divorce battle
That still has continued to rattle
I remember crying every night
Whenever they would get into a fight
Most of my life I have felt neglected by my father
With my mom constantly asking me why I bother
Everything everyone thinks of me is not true
Let me explain myself in my point of view
I am not a happy person
Everyday my anger and sadness worsen
I hide my frown
By smiling so I do not break down
I keep my feelings inside
Because I do not have many people in whom I can confide
My light features make me feel abnormal
I just cannot wait for the day that I get to look normal
I act like I am content with the way I am
But honestly I just want to scram
I never told anyone how my appearance makes me feel
Because they always tell me that the bullying is not a big deal
My parent’s fighting have caused me great pain
And terrible memories that will always remain
My family still does not get along
This mother and father war will be lifelong.
I never told my parents that I have not felt much love
Because I am afraid they will continue to put their fights above
This is who I am; this is who I am supposed to be
I hope one day I can break my brick wall and just be me