I Like To Hear Myself Write
When I write, the one I hope hears it
Is me.
Not a stranger and definitely not family
Sometimes it's for friends to hear,
Or rather people in the past
Because my heart wants closure with those
I haven't talked to in a while,
But really I am the one who needs the words.
I write to let out feelings, to clear my head,
But at the end of whatever I've written
I learn
The things I should do but don't.
I give myself more advice that I don't take
Than anyone I've heard of
But my words are my therapy, my freedom
From the ever present anxiety that constricts
My life as well as my arteries
Something I've tried so hard to shake
But like the way glitter sticks to everything touched,
Anxiety does not separate itself from me;
It has found a viable host and
Leeches on without consent.
So when I write, I write for myself.
I write to empower, to prove, to strengthen myself
Because my words mean my survival
And without them, I
Would drown in my own mind.