I have become quite the actress these days
I am starting to worry
I find myself confused these days
Not quite sure when my words are real,
Or just a delusion i provide for the world around me
Are those statements what I desire to believe?
Are they truly me?
Those boundaries between myself
And the person I wish to become
Are beginning to dissolve
I do not know whether to celebrate this
Or restore myself
Is this not what i have worked to become?
The grass seemed so much healthier
From where I once was
But my new founded popularity
Is seeming to drown me with ridiculous standards
Judgement
Pressure
Pressure that presents an entirely new me
Or entirely artificial me
This i am not sure of
Is this person a character that i choose to play the part of?
Or is this not an act anymore?