I hate myself
I hate myself.
Why?
Because I can’t do what I want to
Even though I should be able to
I have no good reason why I want to
Or why I can’t
I never get what I want
Because I won’t let myself have it
So the regret never ends
And I keep expanding my list of failures
Why can’t I be outgoing
And say what I want to
Or be brave
And do what I want to
I do it all the time
Where no one else can see it
If I told you what happens in my mind
You wouldn't believe it
Sometimes I try to stop
The scenarios and possibilities
But they don't want to die
So instead they define me
I know what needs to happen
But it never will
I just can’t accept
That I won’t be what I want to be
Why?
I hate myself.