I don't want to die

I do not want to die

I have tears in my eyes as snot runs a river.

There is pain in my chest and in my gut.

I don't like pain so I don't want to bleed.

    The TV shows me another person with shaded skin killed by a Protector in Uniform.

And my body hurts so much I shake.

I have to hold myself in my own arms 

Because the murders and violence get closer.

    The ones inside the uniform live free.

They are able to live free of a grave.

Racism is alive 

Wake up and feel it.

But you don't because you don't feel it.

So when I die

When I become a name

A picture on a screen

And whatever is enlarged and negative about me

I become what mistakes my parents made

I become the nonexistent drugs I used

I become every bad crime my people committed around me

I become what the media tells the world.

    But I don't want to die.