I hide

behind the make up 

behind the filters

I dont love myself

I remember the first time

the first time I looked into the mirror

and didn't like what I saw

where along the way did I learn

learn to unlove myself

I hide

hide the real me

under everything there I am

wanting to be let out

begging, praying, wishing

someone would come along

come along and

love me

because

I can't love myself