I can’t
I can’t anymore
I can’t pretend
That it doesn’t hurt
I can’t pretend what you did was right
I can’t pretend that I’m okay
Because what you did was wrong
You hurt me
Again and again
I shouldn’t have told
I shouldn’t have wasted my breathe
Fighting for you day and night
While everyone fought for you
Remember
Who was there
Remember who was in the hospital
I mean would you care
If I was gone
Would you all care
They say time heals all wounds
But I don’t believe that
I don’t believe people can change
I don’t believe that people don’t get justice
I don’t believe what people tell me
Because inside I’m not the same
Because inside I’m torn
If you look into my eyes
You see dark
I wanna be unburied
But my truth is not like that
My truth is far from that
I’ve been hiding
And honestly don’t wanna
But I can’t expose my deepest secrets
I can’t expose the
Fact I’m angry
The fact I’m suffering
The fact I go through it alone
The fact I’m not normal
And don’t tell me no one is normal
Because I am way far from what others think normal is.
Nobody really cares what you are
Nobody really cares at the time
I wanted change
I wanted something different
Then the life we were dealt
I wanted what other kids had
But I never got it
I’m to old now
Almost adult, hate that word
Adult
Why should I
Well because
My CHILDHOOD was TAKEN
Something I will never get back
Something I can’t change
I feel bad enough
I won’t be home
For the holidays
Does anyone get that
While others have fun
Partying it up
While I’m stuck I’m stuck
In foster care
Probably never getting out
Court comes up soon
Wonder
What’s gonna happen
Please judge
Don’t say no
You can’t
You can’t say no
It’s not fair
I deserve
What other kids have
Judge
I deserve it
You heard it before
It’s damaging to me
But you don’t care
It’s not you that’s hurt
Because of the broken system
So please don’t get mad
When I say I’m angry
At the fact that
There is no justice
That there is no life in dhs
there is no normal to this life
There is no friends in the system
There isn’t anything
So tell me judge
Should I give up
I believe so
Because I had a time
Where I thought I was going home
But each time it’s been broken down.
So thanks