I am Not Bubblegum
I am not bubblegum
You keep thinking you can just chew me as long as you want
But I burn your tongue and dissolve
So you reach for new sticks wondering what's going wrong
Why I don't just expand and pop at your will
You'd probably have liked to suck my flavor dry then spit me out and deposit me hidden on the underside of someone's desk
Or maybe use me as vengeance
Stick me in someone's hair or set me down on their seat
But I wasn't that tangible I did nothing you asked
I never said the things you hoped I'd say
I went straight for your DNA
Seeped into your bloodstream fast like flat champagne
And I lingered in your system each time
Set small fires in your body poured poison in your mind
But I'm not really quite like wine
No
You lose track of where the intoxication starts and where it ends
You can't fend it off with excesses of water the hangover barrels through you and leaves you dry
So you ask yourself why you can't stop reaching for more
You knew you couldn't get addicted to gelatin and sugar
You never thought taking a small taste would do you any harm
It never did with any of the others
You're wondering how this withdrawal could be possible
Well my package may have looked small and square
Maybe you found shiny wrappers inside and figured I'd do fine
Those wrappers weren't mine
More like decoys I put in place years ago when I retreated to the depths of my mind
If I'd really let you in you wouldn't have made it out alive
The poisons I dosed you with were kind
They didn't take much more than your time
You were blind taking bites out of whatever I handed you
A year goes by and now your asking for the poison you once knew
I'm telling you it's not what you think
I am not sugar I am not sweet I'm more like arsenic and you won't be able to get rid of me if you keep taking more
Say that's what you want but you still don't understand
Rubber bands and bubblegum don't begin to explain this
You can't catch me on the bounce back
You can't keep me in your pocket
I'll steal everything you have
So be glad it's over just be glad