I Am the New America
I am “double tap”
and “R.T” at two
in the morning
on a school night.
I am hallways
teaching survival
of the prettiest,
preaching “Ow ow!”
and “Get over here, sexy!”
I am the fifteen year old boy
shoving blunts in between
his small lips,
forcing smoke into his lungs
as he chokes
with a smirk.
I am
the little girl
standing in her bathtub
shaking her bleeding wrists,
I am the sinews
of her mascara
and plasma
beading behind locked doors.
I am the wooden blocks
of a foreign alphabet,
chinking onto an apartment floor
as a child utters a broken translation,
speaking better English than his stay at home
mother and unemployed father.
I am the dog
whose ribs are valleys
in flaxen fur,
picking at the scraps
at which musky hands
and uncut hair
grasp at.
I am the seventeen year old
that hammered his parents to death
in florida,
remembering each time
they tried to stifle my love
for the boy next door,
I am the twelve year old girl
who slices her salad into fourths
and throws up the portion she decided
to eat;
who is waiting for her waistline
to reduce to an apple core
so she can impress the ruthless boys
hiding at school,
the boys who call her names
and teach her to hate
her own skin.
I am the single mom
who still lay awake at night
regretting leaving him,
because even though
he painted her with sallow bruises,
at least she was his art
and not someone else’s.
I am the struggle
for a president that
feels powerful in a dress,
and equal in a suit,
I am the clank of pepper spray
on keyrings down a dark alley,
the sunken eyes of children
who are not yet old enough to have been in love.
I am an eagle
burning to ashes,
backgrounded
by fifty stars
and thirteen stripes.