I am more……

I am more than just a black girl who’s been used and sexually abused

More than just a black girl whose innocence has been removed and consumed….by another loser

Had I known the effect that this would have on my future I would have said something sooner

But where I am  from I was brainwashed with the code of the street no snitching

Besides he threatened to harm my family so I sucked it up and stopped bitching

For almost three years I endured this constant rape this molestation

In which it finally stopped when at a young age I started my menstruation

Perfect Smile.

Broken Soul.

Bloody draws.

Freedom at last.

But I am more

More than just a black girl who’s been used and sexually abused

 

I am more….

I am more than just a satisfying fuck or a sidehoe or a mistress

While that may be what you feel about my mother, my sister or my cousin

Or that may be what you feel about my women ancestors

I know that’s what you feel when you hear lyrics such as “Bitches ain’t shit but hoes and tricks”

But i am here to end your social eclipse

And inform you that I am more than the width of my hips and softness of my lips

You depict me to be invisible until it is time for sex or kids

But If I open my mouth and inform you of my master’s degree God forbid

But I am more….

More than just a satisfying fuck or a sidehoe or a mistress

 

I am more…

I am more than just a dysfunctional bitch from a dysfunctional family in a dysfunctional relationship

I dare you to put your hands on me again for with a quickness I will beat your ass senseless though not with my physical power but mmmm can I get a witness?

Not with my physical power will i reign over you

But with my royalty and my ability to be resilient will I win this battle of a broken love

Because lord knows that I am sick of and tired of this void of and it is time that I let go of

Because now I know that

I am more.

More than  just a dysfunctional bitch from a dysfunctional family in a dysfunctional relationship. I am more…..