I am.......
I am…
By: Tahirah Rasheed
When she was born they gave her the name Tahirah which means pure.
So much potential to explore
A lovely looking little girl
With a father who took part in a bad decision
An with a mother who can't understand
How to take care of a child but is easily succumb to a man
That's when her grandmother stepped in
To take care of the child that her daughter birthed in the hospital bed
The child became confused
Didn’t understand why
Why she wasn't with her parents
She became an angry child
Needed someone to blame so she took it out on the person who helped
The grandmother
All the child did was fight
But fought the wrong fights
Fights with school mates even physical fights with friends
Depressed at all times
Not knowing how to be a social butterfly
Stayed at home most of the time because she didn't know what to do
Family wonders why she so mean
It's a build up of pain from her mother
The confusion of displacement
But they can't see
When she doesn’t cry, why aren't they worried
She’s been through so much that the pain is overtaking
Her relationships with others
She can't even have a real friendship because she doesn't know how to really connect with others
Now she’s growing up
Realizing things here and there
She knows why she gets so mad when people don't try to listen or hear
She's been an adult with her parents in her growing years
Looked out for her brother, taking the blame for what he did
So he wouldn't get in trouble and get the repercussion in the end
So when it all changed with a fast switch up
She didn't know how to be a kid, she was a grown up
Only 8 years old and a mother to her own brother
Thats kind of messed up
But she held it in, just all bottled up
She grew up and realized
That her life was in her hands
She had to make a difference
FIgure some things out
Find who she was, even with all the doubt
Had to fight through all the stereotypes because of her mother
They all said:
She will dumb
she will stupid
she will brainwashed from a man
stray away from her family because of the man
But who are they
I say:
She will be wise
She will find herself
She will be pure
She will find what love is
She will find happiness
This girl has been through alot
I am this girl
I am…Strong