I’ve spent my life
Location
I’ve spent my life trying
Trying to do everything
Trying to be the best
Trying to make my family proud
In the beginning it was selfish
I’d try to be a brat
To show how I hated my parents fighting
To stand out from the wall
To stand out from the crowd
Then I was trying to counteract the bullying
Hoping to stop the pain
Wanting to get out
School was not safe
Home was not safe
The only safety I found was in books
Years down the road my parents split up
My mom comes out as lesbian
Her partner moves in
I’m at a new school
Life is uncertain and terrifying
Everyday being told I’m going to hell
for not REJECTING my own mother
being rejected by my peers and their families once again
where could I go
What could I do
I’m only one person
and one person can only take so much
grades suffered
lost and confused
hurting with no one to help
Flash forward
Junior year
Returning to the school that caused so much pain
New attitude
This year I’m doing ME
I’m improving ME
not anyone else
Made friends
Got good grades
Joined sports
Did extracurricular activities
Senior year
Working my butt off
honor roll
A lead drama role
good year
triumph through my tribulation
Next year begins my life
my family is split and struggling
Still working hard
Sometimes we need a helping hand.
What I’m aiming for
Marine Biology
Why
Because I’ve always loved everything about water
all the animals and plants
the way it moves and soothes
always there
always strong
I want to explore
water is the next frontier in science
To make my mark on the world
To stand out
To discover new things
To bring new knowledge to this world
To give someone else something to hope for
Be a part of making other’s dreams a reality
Make myself happy and successful
To be the best me I can be