My latest fascination, my newest obsession is you

I think about you all through the school day

Talk to you whenever I can

I miss you all the time, even when I'm talking to you

Because we're 3,350 miles apart and I can't hug you

I can't see your smile or wipe your tears and it hurts

Because we're 3,350 miles apart and I can't comfort you

When you cry, I want to tell you that I love you, but we can't call

Cell service is stupid and it's not your fault, but we can't call

You won't be able to hear the conviction in my voice when I say that I'm sorry

We're 3,350 miles apart and you are the most important part of my life

Even though I tell you some time close to once every three hours, I know you still don't understand how important you are to me

I need you so much and I never even knew

Since you walked into my life, it's been so much better

You have no idea how much you mean to me

How much your presence has affected me

It's been days now since I've had to force myself to blink away an empty gaze into nothing and pretend that I'm fine

Not because I'm now fine, but because I'm no longer empty

Because I can't go without meeting you

Because every other person-every other reason has been for them, but this is for me

I finally have a relationship that makes me want to stay

Not so that I don't hurt someone, but because talking to you alone keeps away the emptiness

Because the time that was once spent wishing I was nowhere is now spent wishing I was anywhere, just so long as you were there too

Because I'm fangirling over you so hard

If I had a picture of you I'd print it out and hang it on my wall

I created an entire playlist just of songs that remind me of you

You can bet that when I finally meet you, I'll take as many pictures as I possibly can

I'll make a collage and a slide show and everything in between

And I'll send you videos of me telling you how much you mean to me every single day until you admit how annoying I am

I'll remind you every day and all of the days after that

Because you give me more serotonin than I've had in a long time, so much more than I know what to do with

You brighten my day in the cheesiest way I can possibly think of and I love it

I'm hyper fixated on you and it's the best thing that's ever happened to me