How I knew
I love you
for your foolishness, and your ability to give everything you have
the way that you eat everything in sight, and the absolute lack of sleep
the drive that keeps your world turning
even when you think you will fall apart.
I love you
because of the poetry you have hidden in the notes of your phone,
and the small songs jotted down in your notebooks
the way that you dance when no one is around
even to the way you cry when you think no one can hear you
I love you
even when you lost the one thing you lived for
especially when you fought so hard against your sadness
My admiration for you only grew,
when you finally realized your life had purpose without someone elses stagnance
I love you
for the flaws that no one has ever dared to know
when you give out
but how you never give up
for your "always am, always will be"
and finally... for you.
I hated you.
Every inch of you
for so long.
Now looking in the mirror, at the woman you have become
I can properly say I love you
without feeling any shame.
How did I know, they ask
the answer is simple
the moment that I decided to live for myself and not for anyone else
Is the moment I started to love
the woman
reflected back at me