Hidden In My Pupil
In these eyes
there misconception
But my conception is disguised by my bland affection
To try to cope with everyone's perception
Of me
My mom gave me contraception
Because these boys are full of deception
Knowing I don't need depression
I accept the offer with no regression
You see
My conception is based on
Heartache, backache, feet ache
And a big ass HEADACHE
All he said was I need a break
Since when was he an actor
Ready for his second take
I'm not a relationship man
He said
Damn
I was just apart of his master plan
So don't tell me the liars and cheaters are fake
Because that is a trip down memory lane I ain't dying to take
Behind these eyes
Lies insecurity and instability
When I try to stride to my full capability
I am always pushed down
By a failure to look the same
As everyone else
I am looking for security in my skin
But workplaces to busy
Trying to hire thin
Flawless Hair
Make up on
Since when did being curvy, natural, and still beautiful become a sin
This is a dog eat dog world
It’s way too late for big girls to win
Behind these eyes
There is fury and determination
I want to stand before a nation
Of equals
Because although my race has met some equality
My skin still conjures up
An irrationality of stereotypes
So yes I put on a straight face
I am determine to succeed
So my mom can stop pacing
My brother stop spacing
He always escape in those kush clouds
Cause he tired of the hate
I smell my victory in the distant
It reeks of money, brains, and my unforgivable blackness
Behind these eyes
Is love
Love for
The baby mamas
The single mothers
Working grandmas
Hell! I even have love for the deadbeat fathers
My heart is so big
It is like the US
Without no immigration clause
My love is like a python
It constricts you
Until its unbearable
I refuse to love for fake
It's simply a gift
God has blessed me
With love that is true
So I cannot bestow upon
You anything less
My love has no pause
No reset, no play, no rewind
Love is in my nature
It’s just how I am designed
If you can't already tell by this 6 stanza poem
That behind these eyes
Lies a beautiful girl
That is disregarded for taking
Pride in her own skin
A girl that has bags underneath her eyes from her consistency to achieve
Those bags are evidence she ain't stopping until the world beneath her feet caters to her
Until society finds a home on her side of the fence
A girl that loves so strong it can bring heaven and hell together
These eyes seen it all
And no matter what
This girl was never destined to FALL!
Destany Boykin
June 5, 2014