Misery loves company,
Misery drags me down, trying to claw its way down my throat
I refuse,
I kick,
I scream.

Since I can’t move Heaven, I raise Hell.
No to my happiness,
Every time,
Trying to tell me what’s right for me,
Acting as if you know what I need.

Angry when I’m happy,
I’m slipping out of your grasp,
You grab,
Holding tighter,
My face turning black and blue

Nothing will make this right again,
You don’t understand,
You couldn’t even hope to,
You don’t even TRY,
It’s all lost

I’m making myself happy,
NOT YOU,
I’m being selfish,
Wanting to enjoy my life,
Not wanting to be a people pleaser.

I refuse to let you ruin this for me,
You will not drag me down with you,
I will be set lose soon,
You’re scared,
Exactly 2 months.

I go to school,
Hell.
I got to work,
Hell.
I go to the house,
HELL.

Everyday.
Imagine having to drive yourself places you detest,
The way your stomach churns horribly when you see that house,
Every day,
Waking up in a prison.

This house is not a home,
I’ve never had a home,
Home is full of love and happiness,
Not lies and loathing,
Two against one.

I’m putting a foot down,
Not taking this from you anymore,
I must respect you,
Yet you can’t respect me?
Makes no sense.

Treat others the way you want to be treated,
Practice what you preach,
Life, Liberty, and the pursuit of happiness,
Don’t we all deserve to be happy?
Oh, but I must not be included.

You think you know it all,
Think you know me,
It’s all a lie,
You always called me weird,
I’m not weird; you just never tried to understand me.

How could this happen to me?
Such a good child,
I deserve to be happy,
But no.
No happiness for this one.

I’m sick of this life,
The constant misery,
The constant fake smiles,
The constant bullshit and lies,
The constant criticism.

How you all try to be “real parents”
You’re 17 and a half years late
You had your chance,
You blew it.

Thank you for showing me that blood is not thicker than water,
Thank you for showing me that parents can turn their backs on their kids
Thank you for turning me to stone,
Thank you for stomping on my heart
Thank you for showing me how selfish people can truly be.