I am always seizing 

Feeling extremes, never in-betweens,

I'm wrought with suffering and white hot joy

Kicking and punching like a child 

Screaming for a toy

A restless, endless, constant 

I bang on her rib cage 

Demanding an end to this constant beat

this drum solo I have to keep up 

for her to take a breath

Give me an end to this suffering!

Put my worries to rest!

I want more than she can give me

without her death.

When will I stop seizing, human?

When will I be still?