I have never been

                         Good

                                   At figuring out my feelings.

I have always been

                          Bad

                                  At understanding myself.

 

My thoughts are

                         Chaotic

                                       At best.

What I really want is

                          Peace

                                      With myself.

 

That’s where

                        Writing

                                    Comes in.

Or sometimes it can be

                        Drawing

                                      Instead.

 

Poems let the words

                         Escape

                                       Out of my head.

When writing a poem I don’t

                           Hide

                                     How or what I feel.

 

 

It’s about communication with

                                               Myself

                                                          And me alone.

It has never been about

                                              Others

                                                         Understanding me.

 

 

The words can be

                       Crazy

                            Upside down

                                 Different

                                    Broken.

But to me it is

                         Calm.

                               Understanding.

                                     Decisions.

                                         Believing.

 

I write to see myself on paper.