why do i still care about what you said

why do you still haunt me

the darkness i call lonliness,

it's swallowing me whole

i hide away 

afraid to speak

when will I be happy?

i can dream that one day

someone will love me 

I can dream of a place where I am free

I am happy when I am alone

yet, lonliness is what is killing me

what is wrong with me?

Am i not pretty?

Am i not smart?

Am i not good enough?

but when i dream

everyone can see the beauty inside me

they see the real me

I know someone loves me there

but soon someone will accept me

and see me as beautiful

hopefully it won't be too late

will you be the one who will save me?