Happier Supermarket, Jealous Flowers
There are three cranberries left on the counter
A reminder of us I can’t seem to wipe away
It was different then
When we first fell
Crashing into our own oblivion
Back when everyday was an infinity
And we were timeless
The whole world bowed down to us
And we ruled them all
Kings and Queens marveled at the sight
Of us, together, unstoppable
But that’s gone now, our trumpets gone quiet
We are nothing more than a murmur
Dying flowers that I forgot to throw away
Poisoning the air with our memories
Three red stains on a counter,
Three long days we should not have to remember
And a promise I can’t seem to forget
Trust like a bridge, charred and ruined
Texts never sent, love never spoken
How was I supposed to know?
Lies tear us apart
The silence is suffocating
Silence that I can’t break
I shout into the void sometimes
Thinking you’ll respond
But you, like the cranberries, stay silent
As if one day, I’ll just leave you
Forgotten, collecting dust
The ability to love has no gaps
No impossibilities
I thought you’d come back
It’d be some kind of cruel joke
Is it warmer there, where you’re at?
I know you hate the cold
I only want the best
Is it?
Do you miss me?
Would you change it?
Are the stars pretty tonight?
Distance transcending time, lifting us up
The air separating everything
As if on different planets
An empty page stares back
Of a letter I know you won’t respond to
I threw out the stuffed animals today
If you really loved them, you would have brought them with you
Or come back for them
Like me
Just like me
Did you mean to leave me?
Was it an accident?
Or am I just three cranberries left on the counter:
Not worth the effort?
Something you’d rather never was
A ex whatever we were
Nothing worth the time
Not worth the tears
The lies whip up a tornado around me
My anger a bonfire, scalding my skin
They told me that the human body was 87% water
You were 13% of me
So I gave myself to the fire, let it burn off everything it could
When I breathed back to life,
My arms and legs burned, bones exposed, you were still there
You were never the part to burn off
You were never the one to leave
Except when you did
When I said forever, I meant it
Even if you didn’t
So I’ll go home and google
15 original ways to get stains out of my counter
And a girl off my mind
But yeah,
I’m fine