A Glow Inside A Seemingly Black Heart
A Glow Inside A Seemingly Black Heart
Remember when you were young and oh so innocent?
You'd always smile and be friendly to everyone in hope of making a new friend
And even though you weren't successful, you'd just smile and keep trying
And then there came that day, the day you found out that people can be so mean
So cruel
Such a bully
You get made fun of your clothes
Your smile
Your weight
Your shoes
And just being you
At first you try to shake it off and just smile again
But over time, after daily harassment
Your innocent smile fades
Your happy-go-lucky mood become a slow, bitter trickle
Your clothes once containing colors eventually become darker and darker
And your heart becomes a cold and heavy stone
As you and everyone else grows
The insults get worse
The frequency escalates faster than you try to block them out
And the number of people that follow your tormentors
That once was a militia now becomes an army
And then it finally happens
The day where you become so cold hearted and angry
That your once happy self is locked up so deep inside with chains of irons
Is only a clouded memory that acts as the conscious you choose to ignore
You start to wear all black, skulls, boots, and a spiked vest
You try to go from everyone's target
To the one that no one wants to go near
You become short tempered
Eternally angry
And you form a labyrinth of a shell to block everyone out
So you don't have to deal with your pain
You become renown throughout the social hierarchy as the boy who never smiles
Rarely laughs
Always angry
So cold and bitter to everyone
But deep down in your new heavy heart
You know you don't want to be this way
You miss not needing a reason to smile
You long to share a laugh with another
You just wish you could open up to the world
And let them know who you really are
But the daily torment makes you afraid of your own self
You finally seek out your true self
Find help from people who were just like you and know how to help you
You fight it and refuse to open up at first because you are afraid what will happen
You feel like you're going to be torn down like all the other times
But with time you opened up
You learned to smile again
To laugh again
To feel human once more
To love with no fear
You finally break your chains and soar to the clouds
You have reunited with your past self that you believed died long ago
Your family cries and smiles
Your true friends don't say anything but embrace you as a group
Then everyone that once made you feel so weak
And the whole world finally sees you for who you really are
What was once anger, frustration, violence, and rage
Is now kindess, patience, passiveness, and compassion
And you feel so good because you spent so long in your black heart
So deep, so cold, and so distant
That what was once an epitome of darkness
Has now become such a radiating glow
Even though you dawn your spikes, boots, and somber attire
You do so with this newfound love
As a reminder to yourself where you have come from
What you had to go through
And to show to the world
That even the ones who appear to be the darkest and coldest of people
They can have a glow inside a seemingly black heart