Can’t sleep, can’t breathe

Memories of you run through my mind

The memory of our first time brings tears to my eyes.

The way your body felt as my hands caressed your back.

Your gentle sweet kisses that made me weak,

The love felt between in a gentle embrace.

What did I do wrong to lose someone like you?

These memories won’t disappear

It’s as if their burned into my head

Don’t want to sleep.

Instead I listen to the memory of your voice,

See your lips forming each letter.

Then I remember.

I remember that even as I lay there you may be caressing her,

Smiling down on her face with that gentle look I loved so much.

The look that made everything okay.

A look filled with promise to always be there.

But that promise was moot,

You left.

You walked away without as much as a glance.

So now I lay broken on the ground,

Staring at the ceiling and wondering what could have been.

What could I have said that would make you stay?

I said we could be one again.

Didn’t I?

Am I so hard to trust?

You said you want someone who’ll give you more than just sex.

Didn’t I?

I thought I had,

Apparently I was way off base.

I don’t know how express these emotions,

They make it hard to speak,

Hell I can’t even breathe.

My heart says fight while my brain begs me to go,

I can’t let go,

I miss the way your arms would wrap around me,

The way your heart sounded while my head lay on your chest.

The way you’d smile and my heart would skip a beat,

I’m sorry for not saying all this and more.

I know I’ve lost any and all chance,

But I would like just one more dance.

Even if it is all in my head…