I was a young girl

Confused with the things

I had experienced and seen

I was too curious

I tried to experience love

So imaginative

Full of life and dreams

I grew and I grew

But the more that I knew

The more the shame grew

I had no one to trust

I began to bust

The creativity drowning

The sleep retreating around me

I was shut off

You wouldn’t have known

You couldn’t have known

I wouldn’t have shown

 

I wore a perfect crooked smile

Bright green eyes that screamed with happiness

My head floating backwards

Because of a joke that I spoke

“How joyful she is!” people would speak

But the smile was fake and nervous

My eyes were scared and screamed with fear

My jokes were to mask the secrets and sadness

You wouldn’t have known

You couldn’t have known

I wouldn’t have shown

 

I did feel broken

Unwholesome

A half of a person

Of course you didn’t know

I grew more in wisdom and knowledge

I’d done something wrong

I was a child

I wouldn’t have known

But it was something typically frowned upon

I couldn’t tell anyone

Anyways what’s done is done

 

I still had no trust

So when asked for a secret

A lie is what followed

Opening a can of worms

My life began to spiral

You wouldn’t have known

You couldn’t have known

I wouldn’t have shown

 

A broken family is what I began to see

Cracked like a bowl I had dropped in the sink

It was all my fault wasn’t it

We lost our home

There was a roof over our heads

I had a bed

But it was not my own

I didn’t have a home

But you wouldn’t have known

You couldn’t have known

I wouldn’t have shown

 

Now I’m older I have made it a bit further

I’ve come to terms with the bridges that were burned

My smile more genuine

My eyes softer

With a real light inside

My laughter real and kind

The deeper reason unseen

You wouldn’t have known

You couldn’t have known

I wouldn’t have shown

 

I never told you my story in full

The dirty details

The dusty places I have journeyed

You may see someone unique

But you wouldn’t have know what I have gone through

You couldn’t have known

I wouldn’t have shown

 

Don’t worry about what you have read

These places and things I have been through

Have made me the person you now run to

I have grown

You wouldn’t have known

You couldn’t have known

I wouldn’t have shown

 

You have only been the best to me

Treated me all the same

Even when you hadn’t known