Four Parts
1. I am what happens during a polar vortex in hell.
A thousand raw hymns waiting
to be warmed.
A thousand icy prayers
waiting to be thawed.
Pride doesn’t live
here anymore.
It died
with motivation and strength,
buried in the grave
next to all the chill bones
I had before I grew up.
I am slowly trying to dig
up frosted cartilage.
Take back chill
encased in my frigid carcass.
Reattach freezing limbs
that fell
during the fallout.
2. I am where old soul meets new school.
Roguish and rare
like rattlesnakes with chilled venom.
Brutality oozing off my tongue
like honey that stings
as it sweetens.
That smooths as it soothes
and sticks to the icy layers slowly melting.
3. I have been turned into black twisted cables
hung between telephone poles.
I cannot get strung any higher.
Ice has a new meaning
when it is hanging off my wires,
holding me down.
Ice is what keeps me
swinging.
4. I am an angel with wings
ripped and broken
from street fights in junk
yards where anything goes.
This was not meant for me.
I have never been
fighting without rules,
sucker punching clenched jaws-
that breaks me.
I dropped my halo
in the scorched brimstone
miles away from home.
If only I could remember
where home was.