she died and it was so strange
i never understood how they would say
one minute here
and the next gone
but that’s just how it happened
and i feel guilty because i keep forgetting
i keep smiling and laughing
before i remember that she’s dead
and i love her i do -
or maybe i loved her and do not anymore
or maybe i never cared at all.
now that i think about it
it never mattered much anyway
i forget who she was
i never loved her at all