Filming Mortality to dad
I want you to see me through the whole in your brain
the one that sunk as you fought the tumor in vein
i want you to look at me through eyes that have meet everyone
retelling stories of those who you created with and you're never truly done
tell me how you came to act, tell me what drove you to insanity of creation
tell what on earth made you think it was a good idea to fight for a loosing generation
do you feel like you're winning, do you feel like you're making something more than yourself
do you feel like now you will never achieve anything because of your failing health?
Do you understand all that you have taught me?
do you truly know why I decided to be what I'm going to be?
when i grew up watching you on a screen,
even when i didn't know what your words could mean
i knew that i wanted to do that too,
i wanted to grow up and be just like you
but the acting drove me to utter chaos and i almost lost my mind
trying to loose myself in different characters all of the time
so i realized that i wanted to create on the other side of the lens
so i used your recourses and talked to your friends
and i found out that was my skill
it was my talent and now my will
so i could tell everyone the stories that were buzzing in my head
and it all started when you would read me to bed
you started my carrier, you helped me find my path
you knew creation was my key, not thinking of the after math
now in an unstable world with no money to my name
i have to bet the devil on an unknown game
i use a camera to create what you always read
i want to break barriers of race, gender and creed
because life is just a tragedy
the rules are escaping me
there is no unchanging stability
when you know what you have to be
i will create films that transcend mortality
they will not die with weathered chaos
they will not fall with every breath
they will not move with each new fad
they will not judge from good or bad
to every lost soul left to wander
to every person who cant help but ponder
to every misty headed child
to every elder meak and mild
you will find yourself through this
all your uncontended bliss
i do not film fluffy falsehoods
i do not show what you think is good
i mirror back reality
this will never just be a job to me