Entering the unknown

Thinking that I could cope

Hoping that things would improve

 

But...they didn't

 

Excelling in the academia

"Coping" just fine

 

But...it was an illusion

 

Seemingly okay on the outside

With obviously stellar results

 

Truly struggling on the inside

With detrimental physiological effects

 

But...appeasement seemed right

 

Fearing other's perceptions

Seeking a compromise

 

But...compromise there was not

 

Facing an ultimatum

Scared to disappoint

 

Afraid to leave

Afraid to remain

 

Fighting for balance

Fighting for satisfaction

Fighting for emotional bliss