The feelings deep inside
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I was little
I was sick
my throat was closed
I couldn't breathe
I couln't talk.
I was small,
I was bright,
my vocal cords
worked fine, but I was scared,
I was shy,
so when I was small I couldn't talk.
I was a pre-teen,
I thought I was all that,
but one moment of self-expression,
a moment of attitude,
got me a scream,
got me a slap,
so after that
I couldn't talk.
Now that I am older
now that I am tall
I still fear,
I'm still shy;
I am hurt,
it's too much
too many emotions,
all at once.
So i can't breathe,
I can't talk.
But, I can write.
inside poetry
I can cry,
I can laugh,
I can be myself
I can lead my life.
Through poetry,
I can let go
off all that is inside
and feel myself
coming apart
with fantasies
of what could be
and what really is
within my mind.
Poetry is my freedom,
poetry is my strife,
poetry allows me
to keep myself together
and not fall apart.
This is why I write.