It's times like this when I'm lonely, confused, and feel abandoned, it would be nice if you were here.

 

Or at least near/ close by on your way to see me,

But you're out having fun while the couch sticks to my butt 

 my eyes glued to the tv.

There's definitely been points in this relationship when things weren't the best...

And I've had my excuses.. but ill give all that a rest.

 

The real answer...

lies deep down within me, 

But I've been blinded by fear so it is hard to see,

But when I listen to my heart it's something I can hear, for its no mumble in fact it's loud and clear, 

1 reason for it all the same reason you wanna disappear ,

It's fear. 

Fear of the unknown and of being hurt so I do it first, and it's unfair to you I apologize for this curse.

 

As Rob Hill Sr. Says am I lonely because no one cares or am I lonely because I am not strong enough to let anyone get close enough to care?

 

 

So just as you can disconnect and break away,

I let fear get the best of me and this weakness knocks me astray,

Off the road so far that I become lost, and from always paying attention I now know the cost.

And it's LOVE a price in not willing to pay, I can't go without it not another hour or another day. 

I always knew you were something special and so rare, my heart told me and my brain never listened which made me seem not to care. 

I know now more than ever fear was the reason for it all, fear of the little things but also the big and the tall

What we have is real and you and I aren't the only ones that know it, my blood pumps for our love and I'm not afraid to show it.

So now as I tell myself this I hope this message gets to you,

From this point on there will be no limit to what we can do.

But I ask that you never ever blame yourself, you've had enough pain and suffering and I want you in good health. 

Don't you stress or worry, for its all coming together, I can see change in the future like dark clouds to hot weather.

 

For years I've tried to be someone else, 

And it's still so hard to explain how that feels, 

I was in too deep and went on a roll like a set of new wheels 

Till this day there is some confusion inside of me,

But I am here to tell you that I won't let it define me. 

 

With all Gods blessings one would think I'd be alright, 

But in the midst of my image are things out of sight..

As it says in the bible what's in the dark will come to light, and since it has, put on your sunglasses kuz our future looks bright.