Fallen angel I wish we had more time together

We were supposed to grow so old and turn to dust together

We used to trust each other bestfriends until the end we used to bust each other 

We made it through together 

Hard times and the struggle we grew up together 

You had my love you had my heart you were just like my sister

But I’m still here and you’re not 

When will this pain ever stop 

I’m missing you more and more and I just want it to stop 

 

They say your demons came and took you that ain’t how it was 

They didn’t know you loved the high 

You lusted for the buzz

They didn’t know you’d reached your point you had hit misery 

I fought so hard to bring you back 

Jul you took all of me 

 

Queen of chaos dame of damage I used to hate the shit

Broke me down it made me hurt but now I’m missin it 

Remember swinging in your yard and we were laughing so hard

I got hurt really bad and you had witnessed it 

You called your mama she came out and then she kissed the shit 

 

See from the start I knew that I had found my person cause I ain’t find nobody like you and that’s for certain 

You were the only one to ever get my mental 

You spoke the truth you saw my shine you made me special 

Everybody askin “wait what really happened though?”

I lost my fucking other half and now I’m letting go 

Take the drugs jul don’t let them take you 

But that’s just what had occurred god damnit why was it you 

 

I saw your shine I saw your spark I saw  your whole potential 

My heart is getting heavy writing on this instrumental 

They say “I know she’s gone but you can talk to her in heaven” 

I gave you all of me to save you but you just never listened 

Fuck. 

 

 

So now I’m left all alone your house no longer a home 

I used to wake up to missed calls and texts all crowding my phone 

And jul I really just miss you 

I never wanted to diss you 

But I had to stop all of the trauma that I was getting used to 

Look 

Never wanted to leave you scared alone or high and dry 

But you didn’t see the pain in me that you had caused inside 

Everyday when you would bug I’d stay inside to hide 

Myself from all of the hurt you used to treat me like dirt 

Play around w my heart when you were always my first

 

“Addiction is a disease and we should help those that are sick”

Man I just laughed up on this beat cuz that sentence didn’t click

The nodding out the up and down you fashioned all of it 

Say you’re tired smoked too much man you were dope sick 

You weren’t ever alone 

I made your problems my own 

But I hit restart on my life cuz I was done iggin it bro

 

See I got wise and I stopped then I saw the fight in you drop 

So more and more bars you popped 

When everyone else had stopped 

You’d walk a mile take a bus all for your dirty cop 

 

I look back and I cry Bc my childhood died 

You took your life you took my fight and now the stars will collide.