fake
looking from the outside i seem normal;
looking from the outside my skin is flawless;
looking from the outside my eyes glitter with happiness;
looking from the outside my lips curl to create a smile;
looking from the outside my head is held high;
but cut me open and you’ll know who i truly am;
you’ll see on the inside i am flawed with scars;
you’ll see on the inside my eyes shed tears endlessly;
you’ll see on the inside my smile is broken;
you’ll see on the inside my smile is broken permanently;
you’ll see that no matter how much make up i want to put on i can never cover the hurt that i have been through;
you’ll see on the inside i am a broken and dark person kept away from all because of fear
you’ll see that on the inside i fight to not show my true emotions;
the emotions that i feel for him that grip at my heart not willing to let go;
the emotions that i feel when i see him; when his eyes meet mine;
but i fight to not show my emotions due to the hurt that i have caused him;
i fight not to show that i still love him even when he has moved on;
even when we have kissed and have become a thing in the past;
i fight to cover the love and agony on the inside;
i fight to not show my true colours.