Elton John
I don't think I ever told you
I don't think I ever had the chance
tripping over my tongue
and my feelings
and my feet
when I knocked on your door
kept coming back
trying to find something
I had no idea
what it was
couldn't explain why I was so drawn
I had no words
so I drew it in the love-hearts
and flowers
and sunny meadows
that covered my term papers
growing on the margins of my paper
and my mind
I couldn't explain
the why
of how you made me so happy
so sure
so true
so much better
so when you couldn't tell me
and I couldn't tell me
what it was
I panicked.
I forced your hand away
because for the first time
ever
in my brief time on this earth
I felt.
I have lived my whole life
feeling the pain
and joy of others
my own so small and insignificant
in comparison
and with you,
It's all I could feel.
for the first time I was not the bystander
the spectater
the cheerleader
I was the star.
as we watched the stars
in the woods
whirling on in the night sky
something stirred in my chest
and I panicked
and now that the limb is chopped
and this phantom feeling remains
I no longer care
about the why
because
I think
I can finally say it
and not be afraid
you'll be embarassed
or upset
or think I'm crazy
because you don't care
about me
anymore
so although the point is now moot
I hope you don't mind
that I finally put it down in words:
I love you.