You let me sit so high up on mountains

Keeping secret that they were cliffs,

We both knew would crumble.

You gave me everything I needed

A light in the dark,

But I never realized you held the switch

That could flick me off so easily.

I know we aren’t the same

But we could work on it

I’d light a candle and find you

If only you weren’t hiding the matches.

I told you I’d leave

I told you I’d bleed

But your eyes were cold

And though you didn’t look at me

You managed to freeze me where I stood.

All I needed was one of your hugs to melt the pain,

But I can’t let you feel the nausea I cause you.

I can’t hurt you.

For you’re a perfect dove

That needs to be handled gently

By hands that aren’t bloody and scarred like mine.

I don’t want to stain your perfect skin with my touch,

Even if it’s the touch of someone who cares for you

Who fell for you.

Who needs you.

I’ll let you hide from me,

And I’ll pretend to not know where you are.

I’ll pretend I didn’t hear the things your friends said to me.

I’ll pretend I didn’t see the looks of disgust I received.

I’ll pretend you didn’t leave me in the dark,

The same place I was in when you first rescued me.

But you did.