Disguise
Lies that hurt, Tears that flow
A make-up disguise, with bloodshot eyes
She’ll fake a laugh, and put on a smile
They’ll never know that she’s in denial
Why does it matter? She’s never concerned
She knows there won’t be any lessons learned
She rarely cares, and always shows it
She’s lost in the crowd but nobody knows it
She holds back her tears, so they won’t see her cry
She’ll hide all of her fears, and continue to smile
Her life is a wreck; they’ll watch her spiral down
They’ll hope that one day, she might find solid ground
There’s nothing they can do, but patiently wait,
Continue their lives, and keep a steady pace
She never smiles, no longer able
Pops another pill, snorts coke off the table,
Smokes another blunt, and hopes she’ll be stable
They all try their best to convince her to stay
But she’ll never let anyone get in her way
As everyone watches, she ignores their stares
Avoids their comments, as her music blares
They try to get through to her, but she puts up a fight
Even so they keep hoping maybe one day they might
She looks in the mirror seeing her slim face and pale skin
Her eyes fill with tears and she cries once again
Nothing she does rids of the pain,
Not even the drugs or her words so profane
Still they all stare, but say nothing at all
There’s really no point, they just let her fall
Then comes the day when she makes that one call
The one that could be life changing, which might catch her fall
No one believes it, so none of them answer
They roll up their sleeves, saying no is their answer
She’s pushed them away, why should they care?
They’ve all had enough, it just wasn’t fair
They soon question themselves if there would be a point to help her
This could be their chance; they might get to save her
Is she putting up a front or does she really want help?
Based on her past, there’s no reason to believe her
They’ve given enough chances, why not ignore her?
Should they let down their guard and give her another?
The decision is made; it’s time to support her,
They’re all out of fuel but they’ll push a little further
In all of this they hope she won’t push them out the door
Because after all, they’re giving her just one more
The next couple of days, they move her around
They pick up her feet till’ she’s on solid ground
She begins to laugh, and she begins to smile
Although she still falls down every once in a while
She’s strong enough now to pick herself up,
She has a number of reasons to keep her head up
She’s come too far now to throw it away
No one will ever get in her way
This is her life, and at times it sucks
Sometimes it seems that she may just give up
Surprising them all, she works through her troubles
She’s now realizing that nothing is ever out of her reach
And she’s finally taking the lessons they teach
Her friends all support her
Her family adores her
Some people know absolutely nothing about her
Some of you may never know her whole story
But please keep in mind this is no reason to worry
Sometimes she cries, she has bloodshot eyes
She listens to lies, but she never denies
Her laugh is contagious, and her humor outrageous
She looks at her life and keeps turning the pages
No one has seen this side of her in so long,
If you think you recognize her you could be terribly wrong
When she smiles she glows
When she walks she knows
Exactly where she’s going to go
She never moves without direction
She keeps her mind on clear perfection
She’s a short slim brunette with eyes sometimes gold
Her personality is ever so bold
She’s kind hearted and cares
More than you think
Her heart is fragile
But there’s just one more link
If you ever wonder about her
Please keep in mind
That now when she cries
She wears no disguise
This is her story
This is my life
_l8nightsnippets 2007